
I spend hours not being able to really see myself
Original Title: “Passo le ore a ̶n̶o̶n̶ r̶i̶specchiarmi”
“Who are we when we look in the mirror?”
Overview
In a moment of deep crisis, I decided to recover to ease my pain. Sharing my thoughts and channeling them into a concrete product helped me make sense of my suffering.
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Axel Quaranta
ThemSelf
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